Dearest liting's 21st!
Clubbed at Powerhouse and toely regretted leaving the club. Had to re-quene for almost an hour before we can to go in again. ZZZ And by the time we got in, everyone's already drinking except us. =(
xx opened dua pao! Freaking cost like what 1k? Woolamak!
Am so not in the mood to blog but ive got nothing better to do.
Not forgetting that ive report due on tuesday which i have yet to do.
Oh, and i cant wait for my tuition pay. Fucking broke to the max now. =( Credit card bill, bank statements, and my overseas trip!
Ok anyway, yesterday's clubbing was fun for everyone i believe. o=
Asked him around 10pm if he wanna go down and find us at PH after his stuff. But when he said he'll update me again if he's coming, i thought he wont be coming. BUT he did.
IDK if it's a good or bad move to even ask him over. I was happy when you told me ure on your way down. But i started thinking what you did from 10pm - 12am. You said you gotta go out for awhile. I wonder. Then you arrive in the club at our table. Butterflies in my stomach just by seeing you there. First 30mins was really awkward. I mean REALLY. You prolly din notice, but i was drinking and dancing alot with the rest just to get your attention. Laoda said you did look at us quite a number of time when laoda pretended to get cosy with me. Then we started moving closer and closer to each other. Ah yes. finally around 3am, im down. drunken and unable to balance myself. Sat beside you and you even make me lean on your shoulder while you put your arms over me. Cool. Another false hint. Why bother to send me home infront of all of them? False hint again? Idk whats going on in your brain anymore. Used to think that i know you well. Not anymore darling. Pictures in fb shows that ure enjoying yourself more than i did. Getting cosy with other girl-friends of yours. It's a pain in the eye to even take a glance at that picture. Why are you making life so difficult for me? Seriously going crazy every now and then just by thinking of whats going on. If youre not at least a bit interested in me, tell me in the face. Slap me with the fact. Dont leave me hanging and dying just to know. Youre ruining my life. Why bother to even ask me out on the 29th? After all this years if not contacting, we're living fine without each other. Too fine. Now im hating you, and loving you. I pause for a min before regaining myself again. I miss you a this very point of time. But idk what ure doing. Or rather, i dont wanna even know. Prolly ure out having fun with another babe of yours, prolly babes instead. Prolly youve got yourself a new girl, maybe more. Idk. Cant stand the sight of everything now. Tell me how to. I cant concentrate in anything now. Not even my report, not even gaming! Nothing! Seriously, why bother. Goodness why! Theres so many questions, so many fucked up days. I wanna know, but yet i dont have the gut to know. Now its neither here nor there. Prolly i shant contact you anymore, but wait, we didnt even contact at all. Elson called me player. But player got played this round.
I was almost dead in club, but you killed me right after club.